Common sense

You really don't need that much money when you don't buy anything.

So the other night in my crazed state I started to think about the different places that I have lived. I counted every single house that I've lived in. I have inhabited 11 different houses. I have lived in 6 different cities. Whenever things got bad and I was in a situation that I was unhappy with, I usually had the option to move. My parents were always glad to take me in when I wanted to change addresses.

Its a fun thing, to be the new girl. It's really exciting to meet a bunch of new people. There is always going to be some one that you have something in common with. Anywhere you go, people will be the same. There just won't be any memories to share.

Do you try to stay in one place and build what you have, or do you go out into whatever world that you see and live in it? People come and go, and so can you. This is not supposed to be any sort of advice, rather me working things out in words.

One of my problems lately is that I am not sure that anything that I am doing is right or wrong or stupid or if I will regret anything that I do later. That is really silly, and will try to stop doing that.


These are the things I strive for, always subject to change:
To have feelings
To leave something productive behind
To have something for myself
To sustain without completely fucking this world over
To grow things
To understand
To love
To live and die.

and maybe to not like smoking so much.
I've only had one today, I swear.