So here I am. This is what I am doing right now.
Over the summer I had decided that I wasn't going back to school, but then on the first day of classes I decided that I wanted to go back. I signed up for classes, and went and had a talk with one of my favorite professors who made me feel good about my decision.
Part of the reason that I wasn't going back was because I was paying for something that I didn't really care about, and was failing. I had decided that university level education was not worth the time and effort that I was putting into it. Most people who go to college don't know what they are getting themselves into, and are just doing it becuase thats what they do to get a job.
The reason that I decided to go back is because there is much to learn from the people I am working with, and I feel that I am benefiting from my education with the people that I am learning from. I know that having a better understanding of social problems, and discussing them with people who are being proactive as well is beneficial. This is not all that is important. I can't just sit in a classroom and discuss problems in the outside world, without truly understanding what is going on. It is important for me that individual people are aware and active.
I am in the Women's and Gender Studies department, and I think that was one of the best decisions I could have made in my higher education career. Every class that I go to, there is at least two people who truly learn new things and make dramatic changes to their lives because of what they learn from the amazing women teaching the class, as well as the women and men in the class. There is something spectacular to know that women are taking charge of their own lives, and realizing that they actually have a brain and aren't the objects they once saw themselves as.
This world is fucked up, and I am trying to do what I want to in the best way possible. The anarchist culture usually frowns upon people who stay in the system and get in a bunch of debt, but I didn't know what else to do. I want to learn. I want to be surronded by people who are capable of teaching me about myself, and about all sorts of things. I need to learn languages to communicate with people.
I am not attending the University to get a good job. I am attending to gain knowledge, to be able to do things more productively, and make a greater impact. Its not like I am stressing to much about buying a house, or starting the perfect family. I am going to school for the completely opposite reason that most of the population does. I am actually going to school to learn.
